Unrelenting Dependency


How often do we put ourselves in a position of total dependency on God? So much so that if He didn’t intervene we’d all be screwed. Too radical? This is the very norm God desires for us. I sometimes find myself wanting to be comfortable with life. Isn’t that the American dream? The very thing we are taught since preschool. Go to school, get a job, and make lots of money so that you can retire early and have a life of comfort and pleasure. An easy life with no tragedy or pain. Why is this even part of our desire? Even as a Christian, with a renewed mind, I still find traces of this deception intwined within my desire. How can this “easy” yoked-lifestyle of the American dream be completely dependent upon God and still be without pain, trials, and adversity? It simply can not. Because of inequity, there is no escape from the tribulation we must live through. But as a thief steals one day and is caught the next, he must restore sevenfold (Proverbs 6:30-31). There will be loss (pain) during those waves of affliction but God will bring not only restoration but restitution. Knowing the heart of our Savior allows us to live more abandoned to the leadership of the Holy Spirit. This ultimately positions ourselves to lean on Him for everything. God doesn’t want partial credit for the lives we live. To choose this narrow path of Christianity it takes a complete dependency upon our Heavenly Father. A life that delivers ALL glory to His name. Sometimes I feel as if I’m asking Him to only help me with finishing the things I’ve started so that I’m able to secretly obtain some praise and glory for those accomplishments. Why do we not go after the things God starts for us so that He can complete the greatest of His accomplishments through us? That in it self is more satisfying than getting a little praise for my own work.


Holy Spirit Fellowship


Our lives should look like Benaiah, son of Jehoiada, (2 Samuel 23) who chased a lion into a pit on a snowy day and with odds stacked against him he killed the lion. Who freaking chases a lion on its on turf? Someone who has placed their dependency completely on God, thats who! In a million to one disadvantage, he killed two giants with their own spears! It wasn’t by his own strength or ability that he was able to do this. In Judges 6, why was it that Gideon’s vastly outnumbered army of 32 thousands was”too big” for God to give them victory over the Midianites? God wants all glory so reducing Gideon’s army to 300 and only attacking with trumpets and jars was necessary. It defied the odds of being humanly possible and accredited God with all glory. We must live our lives more abandoned to Him and stop listening to the limitations of a nation’s faulty dream.


Beloved Warrior

I know that many days you feel like a weary Warrior, too tired to fight. I see you when you have exhausted your faith and lost your passion for My people. Today I want to paint an eternal picture for My beloved Warrior. Every act of kindness you share will water someone’s thirsty soul. Every time you pray for someone, you are changing their destiny from darkness to light. You are more than a light in the darkness. Your faith will continue to be a raging fire that will burn in the hearts of many generations who follow your wonderful works on the earth!                 – Love, Your eternal King

Post by Abigail Lucero


Don’t waste your time by planning for tomorrow, rather glimpse the bigger picture if you can and plan for eternity. Tomorrow will eventually be the day of your demise, but eternity on the other hand, has no end and eventually will be the resting place for your soul (the very spirit that you are). Your soul, your life, doesn’t just vanish and end after this life on earth but rather we continue to live. Where we spend that everlasting time depends on your decisions and lifestyle now. Stop living life with blinders around your vision and grasp this reality check. Realize who your creator is and choose to live for Him, for a life sold out to Him is more fulfilling and satisfying than any selfish life lived. His son, aka Jesus (Yeshua), is going to return (doesn’t matter if its tomorrow or in another two thousands years) don’t be caught off guard living for yourself. Make sure to keep watch for the return of our Savior. You know, the one who died {brutally beaten by men(religious leaders) and crucified on a cross} for our sins; that our Father (the creator) could forgive us and accept us in His kingdom once more.

Call me spiritual, holy roller, charismatic, Jesus freak, religious, fanatic, etc. when we all eventually are face to face with “I AM”, abba, father, the Judge, that higher being, God… will you hear “I never knew you” or “well done my good and faithful servant”?

Amor Vincit Omnia

If Jesus learned Obedience through the things He suffered, (Hebrews 5:8) and the Lord chastens and rebukes those He loves, How can I desire to be obedient and not go through some suffering. How can i expect to be loved without it? Yet life with Christ, in obedience, He wants to make us so happy, and He created life, and pleasure, and satisfaction, it was His idea. Dont you think He knows how to do it best… Dont go to an apple tree looking for an Orange, or to the World looking for Satisfaction. — Lots of love

—  Steffen Anzivino


God is first… I am second

Lately I’ve noticed that people are constantly searching for better solutions to life problems. They struggle to understand the reasoning of it all and are left with dreams of how life would be without troubles. What frustrates me is that I can fill them with logic and human reasoning as to how to make themselves feel better, but the moment God is mentioned they shut me down and say I don’t understand. To give advice that does not include God says that I know the definite answer to those problems and no longer need His assistance. This is to declare yourself self-sufficient. There’s hypocrisy in these actions for most of all people say they believe in God. A declaration in the belief of God means that you have accepted His Holy Scriptures which state He is the creator of all things; thus the solution to every problem. Then, to hear this consistent complaining about bad circumstances is emotionally exhausting. With no hope in their eyes, negativity is the only substance protruding from them. If they only knew how draining it is to the people around them. No one wants to continue listening to this negativity; consequently, they lose those friends and in turn are left feeling lonely with unsolved issues that don’t seem to go away.

“Why is it I have to go through all this pain all the time?… It isn’t fair!”


Why is it that people refuse to accept the belief they proclaim? If you say you believe in God, then what actions of your life say so? Is it not hypocritical to say you believe there is a higher being who intricately designed everything that exist, but then live a life reflecting a world that rotates around you and your needs alone?

There are many difficult trials and tribulations we are faced with throughouta lifetime. A life withouthigher meaning and purpose leaves room for darkness, pain, hopelessness, hatred, iniquity, etc; creating an endless hole in the heart that consumes everything and is never satisfied. It is not until the truth has been spoken and the eyes opened, that you find a seal for this torn heart. It’s only in God, the creator, that we find ourselves whole. It’s only through Jesus, the saviour, that we find ourselves with God. The only true advice to every problem you face, is to declare yourself second and God first.

The I Am Second ministry has allowed those, who have been faced with many different and difficult hardships, to share with the world how they found the solution and are unbelievably happy. They are set free from the burdens of this life and live in abundant joy, for they have purpose and a reason to live. With all this said, I’m Blake Dupre, and I am second.

Magnificent Obsession

I once heard a motivational speaker tell a story of how a business man wanted to be successful. This man sought the advice of a very successful guru with desperation of becoming like him.  The guru told him that they were to meet at the beach at 4am. Without question, the business man showed up. The guru asked him if it was success that he truly wanted and then instructed to follow him into the water. It was the obsession this man had for success that persuaded him to follow the guru into the water. Just as the water was about to reach his face, the guru unexpectingly pushed the man’s head under water and held him there until the man almost passed out. When he arose from the water, furious and still gasping for air, he threatened  the guru for an explanation. The guru proceeded to tell the man that he wouldn’t be successful until he wanted it as bad as he needed air to breathe.

If you consider yourself to be a Christian, then you must want to be like Christ as bad as you need air to breathe. It requires you to rise above the majority that only say they want to be like Him, and actually BE like Him. Most people only kind of want to be like Him.  The thought of being like Christ is at first pleasing to the mind, but to actually live as He did is terrifying. It would mean giving up everything; to crucify your fleshly desires so that your actions would be Christ-like. It has to become an obsession. A passion that would cause you to lose sleep and even forget to eat because you were overwhelmed by Him.  Authentic Christians sacrificed who they were for who’ve they become.

All true passion is born out of anguish. The definition of anguish is an acute deeply felt inner pain because of conditions about you, in you, or around you. The problem today is that so many are too soft, they’re spoiled, and they quit the moment it gets painful. Without this experience of anguish, there is no desire for change and results in accepting failure as a comfort zone. In Scripture, when God was determined to restore a wrecked situation, He would find a praying man and literally baptize him in His own anguish. Therefore, the way to passion is anguish and the way to anguish is prayer. It is when you focus your heart to pray that God comes down and begins to share His heart with you.

We must make Jesus Christ our MAGNIFICENT OBSESSION!

Jesus Chooses and Uses Failures byJon Bloom



“Simon, son of John, do you love me?”

Peter was grieved. Sitting on the beach after breakfast, Jesus had just asked him for the third time if he loved him. Peter had already wholeheartedly answered yes twice. What else was he supposed to say?

With these questions, the Lord was putting his finger on a very tender wound in Peter’s heart. Peter’s failure on the night of Jesus’ trial had been simply horrible. In the hour of his Lord’s greatest anguish, Peter had denied even knowing him. This sin shook Peter to the core of his being.

Jesus had told him that he would do it.1 But in the Upper Room, over the Passover meal, with his fellow disciples around him, Peter did not believe it. He could still hear himself proclaim, “I will lay down my life for you.”2

He had had no idea how weak…

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The Prayer Room – Live

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I know I need You. I need to love You. I love to see You, but it’s been so long. I long to feel You. I feel this need for You And I need to hear You, is that so wrong?. Now You pull me near You. When we’re close, I fear You. Still I’m afraid to tell You, all that I’ve done. Are You done forgiving? Oh can You look past my pretending? Lord, I’m so tired of defending, what I’ve become, What have I become? I hear You say, “My love is over. It’s underneath. It’s inside. It’s in between. The times you doubt Me, when you can’t feel. The times that you question, ‘Is this for real? ‘ The times you’re broken. The times that you mend. The times that you hate Me, and the times that you bend. Well, My love is over, it’s underneath. It’s inside, it’s in between. These times you’re healing, and when your heart breaks. The times that you feel like you’re falling from grace. The times you’re hurting. The times that you heal. The times you go hungry, and are tempted to steal. The times of confusion, in chaos and pain. I’m there in your sorrow, under the weight of your shame. I’m there through your heartache. I’m there in the storm. My love I will keep you, by My pow’r alone. I don’t care where you fall, where you have been. I’ll never forsake you, My love never ends. It never ends.”

-—- Tenth Avenue North


Mike Bickle

You’ve lost it all, what was there to begin with?  A heart in pieces, no wonder you couldn’t find it.  He asked you to wait, yet you consistently crumbled.  All is lost, inefficaciously held together it’s rubbish.  Can the shattered love, or is your love lost?  He asked you to keep watch, but you’re visionless.  By the splinters of your heart, sight is inconceivable.  Desolate and blemished, a pessimistic at best.  Eminence in His splendor, indescribable.  Love lost, inaugurated by Him.  Patiently but yearningly thwarting, your autonomy becomes destiny.  Blood of Christos flawless, everything veiled by is inimitable.  A heart made whole, displayed for all to gaze upon.  No longer forgotten, but newly created.  Lantern ablaze, eyes transfixed.  Overflowing and virtuous.